Oh So Close...

There is light at the end of the tunnel. I can see it. I can feel it. I am so very close to it.

I am driving. By myself. I'm doing more, getting out more; but best of all - I feel alive. I feel anticipation. I feel desire. I am stronger than this thing - these things - that have tried to beat me. I had moments where I wanted to give up but I never did. I gave in, yes. Sometimes that's just easier. But I never gave up.

I'm not quite sure yet what my quality of life is going to be or if I'll be able to get back to my athletic endeavors, but that's okay. I have photography, and as long as I have something to channel that passion into; then I am happy. My heart feels full.

I have a doctor's appointment today for my third pellet insertion; I'll be getting estradoil and testosterone - it's been almost 6 months since I last got testosterone so I'm hoping that will help with my energy level. My weight is a little low, but I feel good so I'm not going to worry about that right now. I am going to ask my dr if she has any idea what my expectations should be as far as fitness. I know I still have a long way to go; I get tired just walking around the mall! But you have to start somewhere and I've been at the beginning lots of times.

My hope is to start looking for a job soon. Then start getting back to doing the things I love; so I can close out this blog and go back to my other ones... xo